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Remember
that it is not about who I am. But rather it is about what happened to me.
Emotions
are worshiped like gods … we suppose they have power of their own … we
worship them in a vain attempt to appease them … before they hurt us yet again
… hoping against hope that they will return to that place from whence they came
… never to come out into our lives and bother us again …
Throughout
the course of our day or our relationship(s) or our life we are constantly vigilant
… ready for the slightest indication that the sleeping giant might be stirring
… will the volcano go off … to day … We rush to what we believe is an
instant understanding of what it is that we think we just felt. Did you hear all of the circular-feed-back-loops
in that statement?
Why?
So we
can think that we are safe … safe from
what?
What
it is that happened to us many years ago … and in some instances lifetimes ago
… sometimes changing its form so we don’t know what we are looking at …
I began
to suspect that if I searched this out and release the pent-up energy I held
about what it was that happened to me … that just maybe things might change for
me …
Just
maybe I was not what it was that I had always thought I was …
I really was not … not special
Neil Douglas-Tubb
Zen and the Art of Lost and Found
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