It came about after a prolonged period of meditation, having the same image come up in my mind's eye over and over - A Closed Door in the middle of a giant hall. Someone said write about it and I did; hence this poetry and the concept, then 175 Missing Pieces and all the rest of the books on recovery and now workshops and seminars on spiritual recovery.
Tuesday, June 14, 2016
Extract from Zen and the Art of Loat and Found
Zen and the Art of Lost and Found
Psychic shadow boxing:fighting a fight you can
neither win, nor protect yourself from. We now know that people are
driven by these unconscious memories, repressed feelings and unfulfilled needs,
and this state of affairs tends to determine nearly everything they do or are
willing to attempt to do or fail to do.
Psychic Shadow Boxing: ...
Does not have to be my
predetermined or pre ordained occupation in life ... that was another
discovery I had made. Just how much time I had invested in doing the dance
of self-preservation in the face of overwhelming evidence that the time for
doing this dance had long since passed ...this amazed me!
My emotions, I had discovered ... yet
another discovery ... were the by-products or afterthoughts of some
cognitive process(s) I had either grabbed hold of or had passed through my life
and in some cases, had grabbed hold of me on the way by ... now were producing
things I had little or no understanding of. What I came to understand was that
the vast majority of this “grabbing onto stuff” had gone on for many
years ... that is where and when I learned it ... many years ago ... and now it was just a simple habit that I had ... something like smoking ... not
very good for my health but dependable as hell ... if I wanted things to be different I just had to change a habit.
Just how much time had I dedicated
to wasting my energy by hanging onto a habit that defined me by my limitations?
As I began to give myself
permission to begin to explore this stuff ... it started to become clear ...
and at the same time ... just a little scary ... I really had no idea about
this thing called life or where I really was in it