It came about after a prolonged period of meditation, having the same image come up in my mind's eye over and over - A Closed Door in the middle of a giant hall. Someone said write about it and I did; hence this poetry and the concept, then 175 Missing Pieces and all the rest of the books on recovery and now workshops and seminars on spiritual recovery.
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Controllers Don't Trust
doesn't trust his/her ability to live through the pain and chaos of life. There
is no life without pain just as there is no art without submitting to chaos. --Rita Mae Brown
is very hard for most of us to see how controlling we are. We may feel uptight
or careful, but we haven't seen it as controlling ourselves or controlling how
people respond to us. We may be worried about a loved one's behaviour or
safety, but not realize our hovering over that person is a controlling
activity. We may be keenly aware of other people's controlling behaviour with
us, but unaware we have equalled their control by monitoring them and trying to
change their behaviour.
a moment of spiritual adventure it is to risk living through the pain! When we
do not seek an escape or a quick fix but have patience with the process, new
possibilities often do develop. We can only let go of our control - or turn it
over to our Higher Power. And we will do it and forget, taking control back
within minutes or within an hour. Then we let go again.
I will submit to the insecurity of a changing universe and have faith that I
can live through the process and grow.